Look up child

The memories begin to surface and I find it hard to breathe, I’ve been bargaining with God daily on why you had to leave.

My eyes begin to tear up and I can feel my heart pound, hearing your voice on the phone use to be my favorite sound.

As my mind becomes restless my thoughts spontaneously race, the way I’ve tried to numb my pain you would find as an absolute disgrace.

My legs become unsteady and my body commences to shake, I ask God, “how much more can one person take?”

He says “ my dear child I have breathed life into your lungs, don’t contemplate your mind for it’s the devils tongue.

The wings of my angels will embrace your grief, fore it is in me that you will find total relief.

I see you questioning life and straying from my herd, my dear child your vision is blurred. You have blinded your eyes and harden your heart, bring me your clay and I’ll mold a new start.

So I leave you with this…I will chase you down every dark alley and will part any sea, my dear child just trust in me.”

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